Been pretty busy the last few days but I wanted to do a quick update while I had a spare moment. Out of our seven embryos four were able to be frozen on day-5 and one more was frozen on day-6. I’m not sure what happened to the others, but I’m feeling good about the number we got. If **fingers crossed** there are no problems with thawing it will give us enough for two FET’s. Most likely we will attempt to transfer three on the first transfer and save the other two for a second transfer if needed.
Oh so I meant to make this post yesterday and never got around to it – a few days ago I placed an order for some Royal Jelly http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/store/en/browse/sku_detail.jsp?id=RJ-1034 . I wonder if anyone else out there has tried this and if they have any advice on how to take it, supposedly you aren’t supposed to take it with anything hot so there went my idea of dissolving it in some nice hot green tea. If I have to suck up and just down it plain I’ll do that, I read some good reviews online of people saying that it helped with their egg quality and what not for infertility – whether or not that is true I don’t know, but I’m willing to try about anything that will increase our chances no matter how slight.
Also thinking about trying Acupuncture this fall, although I don’t know if the thought of being calmed by having little needles shoved into me is really all that calming – but again, I’m willing to try anything if it helps our chances.
Feeling like major crapola today – had heavy duty dental work done yesterday and my period started as well. Major lesson about dental work – don’t go 5+ years without going to a dentist as it will cost you big time (in money and in pain) when you do finally go. Although it’s not like I didn’t go because I didn’t want to go, I simply wasn’t able to afford to go – as there was a time before the husband where I lived paycheck to paycheck and then some so it would come down to “pay rent vs. go to the doctor/dentist” and at that time rent would always win out. Soooooo thankful I have finally reached a point in my life where living comfortably is an actual possibility, granted all the RE bills are still the gigantic financial rain cloud hanging over our heads, but at least we can do something vs. nothing.
Also, on the “woe is me” front my period started yesterday with a bang, I haven’t had a period since my last failed IUI cycle months ago so this one is sucking big-time. The pain is something completely different and something I haven’t had with any other period, it’s almost like a squeezing feeling instead of the normal crampy feeling and I don’t really know what to make of it.
I know that I was stupid enough to think these past few weeks that there was a chance in hell I was pregnant and now I don’t know what to think as ever since I had my hysteroscopy I haven’t had a period that wasn’t medically induced so I don’t really know what this is. A miscarriage? Vindication from mother nature for daring to think that I might actually get lucky and get pregnant naturally? Or just my body trying to flush out whatever? I have no idea, all I know is that it seriously hurts in more ways than one and as of now I just want to curl up in bed and sleep.
I’m supposed to go to Temple tonight as this weekend is Shavuot, I’ve been going regularly for the last couple weeks (I just started my conversion process) and I feel like a failure if I don’t go tonight but I seriously don’t feel like going anywhere and would like to think G-d and my rabbi would understand. Perhaps I will email her (my rabbi not G-d :P) and try to explain, hopefully that will be good enough.
I’ve had a crappy day so the hubs took me to see “The Avengers” it was amazeballs – so here have a picture of Tom Hiddleston (who is so good at being soooo bad). There was some major hotness in this movie – hopefully my husband didn’t mind if I drooled periodically throughout the movie.
I’ve been a huge Joss Whedon fan since way back when the bastardized movie version of Buffy the Vampire Slayer got released (seriously, don’t get me started on why it was the bastardized version). So, I was super jazzed to see what he dreamed up for “The Avengers” and he proved to be awesome as the movie was completely amazeballs. Also, did I mention the serious hotness of some of these guys – yes, it probably kills some of my geek/nerd credit – I don’t really care. I needed to watch some shit get blown up today by some hotties and my husband provided that – so score one for the husband.
So I’ve been peeing like every 30minutes, while I would very much like to attribute this to a miraculous pregnancy I know (logically) that it is more likely due to the copious amounts of watermelon I’ve been consuming as of late.
However, it’s very strange how your heart can trick your mind – I know logically that there is no chance in Hades that I am pregnant as I don’t ovulate on my own and I’m not undergoing fertility treatments currently – but it doesn’t stop me from thinking “maybe…just maybe”.
Stupid heart always getting in the way and screwing crap up.