Not as expected

3 Aug

Just wanted to give a quick update I had my retrieval on Friday the doctor somehow was able to access my right ovary so he was able to get 15 eggs in total. I have pretty much been miserable since Friday everything I’ve read online says most people are fine the day after their retrieval I am not I can barely walk, I can’t go to bathroom, and to top it all off I’m getting a yeast infection from the antibiotics that they gave me prior to the retrieval.

Got the phone call from the embryologist this morning out of the 15 eggs that they got only seven fertilized it was not the number that we were hoping for at all, especially since they’re going to have to make it to 5-day blastocysts and then survive being frozen and thawed.

I’m really trying to think positive and I’ve looked online trying to find other people that have had low numbers of fertilized eggs and they’ve made it to the fifth day and then resulted in a positive pregnancy test but it’s really really hard. I think even my husband who is usually so positive is having a really hard time dealing with our odds. He asked me earlier if maybe that this should be it for us, that we try this and then once we’re done with these than we are done. But I just don’t know, part if me screams to try until we have nothing left- no money, no hope, no anything. When I want to give up I think back to my first IUI and how happy we were when we got the BFP, and although it was short lived I see the look on my husbands face that was pure joy- that look keeps me going. Every time I had to inject something into my stomach or cry during an ultrasound because they had to work so hard to find my ovaries I think if that look and I bite my lip and I keep going.

20130803-233004.jpgNo matter what.


3 Responses to “Not as expected”

  1. storkchaser August 4, 2013 at 11:51 am #

    Thanks so much for this. I’ve been going back and forth between should we keep going or should we stop but I really do want to keep going. I needed this picture and the reminder of the look on Hubster’s face too. I’m crossing my fingers and reeeeally hoping this works out for you.

  2. Theresa August 4, 2013 at 3:19 pm #

    Wow I love that quote. Hoping for some good embryos. Hugs.

  3. fromheretomotherhood August 6, 2013 at 10:35 am #

    I was in a different situation because I was diagnosed with DOR, but my doctor told me that if he got 7-10 eggs retrieved (so not even fertilized) that he’d be really pleased with our odds. Also, I found this graph informative and comforting (hopefully you do too): They lump any number over 10 together, so I hope that retrieving the 15 will be good news for you. Of course it only takes one, but I know that having more makes everyone feel more secure. I read a blog by a woman who had 19 retrieved but only 2 fertilized. The Dr. implanted them but no one expected it to really result in a BFP, but she just recently had twins! Hold on to the success stories and the hope. I’ll be hoping for you.

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